Sarah . . . As a frequent reader of your posts, I find your open search for the best of monogamy (the comfort of commitment) and polyamory (the excitement of the "new") to be a journey that many would like to take. Your quest reminds me of the Heisenberg Principle (i.e., roughly, you cannot measure the speed of a particle and its location at the same moment). I think that many of your readers, myself included, wonder if you will end up feeling that did not get the best of either approach. I do not say that as a criticism; rather, it is just an observation. In fact, that outcome may be the best possible outcome -- for you. We will keep reading.